I feel the need to give some history on myself and my family. I will refer to things on this blog and I don’t want you to be reading and say, “what is she talking about.”
My husband, Elliott, and I have been married for 10 years. We met at our fire deptartment. He at the time was a firefighter and I was an EMT. We dated, got married and started a family. Natalie is our first adorable daughter. We had a great life as a new little family. Life was good…
Fast forward about a year and a half. As the world was struggling through the terror of Sept. 11, 2001 my family was experiencing it’s own terror. Natalie had become very ill. She was 18 mo. old, developing very normally and with such a sweet personality. She had started vomiting and progressively got worse.
To make a really long story short, Natalie went into cardiac arrest from a complication with her bowels. She was air cared to our local Children’s hospital and emergency surgery was performed. We thought all was fine but she didn’t wake up from her anesthesia. They performed a MRI and determined that she had suffered an Anoxic Brain Injury. This is an injury similar to cerebral palsy.
We spent 12 weeks at our children’s hospital and came home with a “special needs child” Now this ROCKED OUR WORLD! How were we gonna handle this? Why us? What did we do to deserve this? What did she do to deserve this? While we were in the hospital we had lots of time on our hands. I began to dig deep into God’s word and I was on my knees in deep conversation with our Savior.
I found peace in tons of scripture but one of my favorites is Jeremiah 29:11,
“ For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
There was my hope. I prayed for God to use this situation and our family. Now was and is it difficult? You bet, but I stand on God’s promises and his love. I place all my hope, passion, desires and peace in Christ.
When we came home we had a “new life.” We had to come up with “new dreams” Life is tough and tiring. We struggle. We get mad, we cry, we go through really tough, rough, times but in the end God gets us through. They say that it is in the valley you grow. Well I lived in a valley for some time and the growth is awesome. You learn to rely on your faith. Natalie is a blessing. She has taught me so much about life. REAL LIFE. Don’t take anything or anyone for granted. Life is short, laugh and have fun. Make memories. Don’t wait till tomorrow!
She is now 9 and we love her with all of our being. We have another adorable, fun loving, make you laugh till it hurts daughter named Phoebe. We named her that because it is a bible name. It means: strong, helper. It suits her. She has brought so much stinking FUN to our lives. She keeps up on our toes and she has such a compassionate, sweet heart. Smart, that girl is so smart. She loves to learn. She loves Jesus and I pray that she grows to have a strong passion for him.
We have met so many friends through this journey, ones that have been there from the beginning, those who were there for a season and we are still meeting new ones. They all hold special places in our hearts. They help, encourage, support, love and hold us when we need it. They make us laugh or laugh at us. They help us with meals, cards, childcare or just letting me vent. To all my girlfriends that are there with me and walk this journey, thank you. I am truly enjoying growing with you and developing a sisterhood. I am so grateful for your advice, love and allowing me to have my melt downs. Our extended families are great. We have some that are really close and some that are in other states but we know that when times arise they are there for us. Family…thank you we love you to pieces!! To Elliott, for allowing me to be what I have always wanted to be, a stay at home mom. For standing by me and encouraging me in every road I have wanted to travel down. For going the distance with me…I love you.
Well there is a little bit of history. I remember praying on my knees in Natalie’s ICU room right after this happened that if this was God’s will for her and our lives that He use her for his Glory. She is his. So that is why this blog has been developed. I want to inspire people in the hope that is in Christ. I want to encourage them that in their trials God is with them. I don’t want to be so blended into society and this world, I want to make a difference for Jesus and eternity. That is my desire.